Friday, December 12, 2014

Day 24

Date: 12 December 2014

傻豬老婆。。你今日點啊?係咪休息緊啊?尋晚成3點先訓得著。。訓到6點幾就醒啦。。今日好累。。係咁大咸碌。。今朝10點幾收到個包裹,原來我地件曼聯波衫到左啦。。終於收到啦。。頭先去company lunch。。而家返到office啦,不過都無乜胃口食野。。好掛住你。。好擔心你。。個個都係度嘻嘻哈哈,我就無乜心情。。覺得周圍好嘈。。好煩。。仲記唔記得上年既company lunch有抽獎。。大獎係note 3啊?今年無獎抽嚕。。大老細話等到過年lunch先抽。。 不過有互相交換聖誕禮物。。將帶黎既禮物編上號碼再擺入個藍度,跟住自己再抽多個號碼黎換。。換返黎既竟然係隻比人戴過既2手舊錶,花晒仲有d生鏽添。。其實禮物有無都無所謂。。只不過唸番起我之前講既。。做好人係咪真係會有好報?老婆成日話我好人,好又點啊?我今日得到既。。竟然係一個無人要而當廢物咁送出去既一隻舊錶。。有同事仲講笑話我係咪得罪左邊個,有人想送我"鍾"(終)。。maybe.. i dont know.. 呢個世界咩人都有。。總之覺得最近d心情怪怪地。。好唔自在。。好多時候個心都好煩好唔舒服。。大老細話4:30pm就可以收工啦。。一間我會返芙蓉啦。。而家落緊好大雨。。我今朝都有幫老婆祈禱。。一間返芙蓉既途中都會。。老婆要繼續比心機,加油啊。。我send兩張相比你睇啊。。一張頭先annual lunch影既。。另外一張係mid valley既聖誕佈置。。始終都係上年既聖誕最靚。。because last Christmas.. i have you by my side...




老婆啊。。我真係好掛住你。。你而家究竟係點?你有無好番d?你有無日日都掛住我啊?你應承過我你會搵我架。。你快d搵我啦。。唔好要老公等咁耐好嗎?下個拜2就係我地一齊既14個月啦。。老公既心每日都好痛好痛。。之前9月見完你個陣我講左d野,你問咁我係咪想放棄。。我話緊係唔會放棄啦。。我地話過無論幾艱難,幾多阻滯我地都會堅持到底。。你終於記番我地以前d野。。我好開心。。但係開心既時刻點解咁短暫?你話過你唔會再離開我架。。你話你剩係愛我一個,唔會好似個衰人咁掉低我,拋棄我。。唔會比我再受傷害。。你唔鍾意佢like我地d相我都即刻係fb del 佢好友。。我地既世界裡面唔會再有佢。。我係醫院醒番既時候你話香港落雪,下一次可能要到我70歲先有機會見到。。我就問你,你會唔會陪我陪到70歲?老婆就話,我活到幾歲,你就陪到我幾歲。。你話你唔會反口。。我相信你唔會架。。forever and ever.. 記唔記得?老婆。。你要記住,無論發生咩事都好。。我永遠都咁愛你。。永遠都唔會變。。對你一條心。。我都話過。。除左你之外,我唔會娶第2個做老婆。。我剩係想同你永遠係埋一齊。。一生一世。。呢個係我對你既promise.. 永遠都生效既promise.. 我一定會keep呢個promise..  我地仲有好多地方未去,好多野未做,我有好多歌未寫未唱比你聽,我仲要買對NB波鞋黎襯你個對NB一齊去拍拖架。。仲要一齊著波衫。。我地件曼聯波衫今日收到啦。。仲有我地件德國波衫呢。。我仲要縱壞晒你。。更加去愛你,錫你架。。仲有我地既小輝輝呢?講左有一年啦。。我地仲有好多承諾未兌現架。。老婆。。please keep your promise too.. please.. 你應成過我,你老爺奶奶同細佬好多野。。我地全部都等緊你啊老婆。。你老爺奶奶咁錫你。。你話過你唔會呃佢地。。唔好要我地等咁耐好嗎?老婆。。我走啦。。我好掛住你,好愛好愛你。。老公等你。。bye bye.. 到左芙蓉再email你ok?錫晒你。。muah!

如果我有事





我怕沒有這運氣 一生一世有我便會有你
因此太著意去逗你歡喜 好給你回味

我也願意信命理 看註定誰先走 是誰未到期
無恙的你 病發的我 唯有累你

無疑太愛你 怎捨得失去力量照顧你 隨時行開了連再會亦無期
然而我信愛 叫你我來日往生都緊記 無論世外人間天與地
在某一天又再一起

如我若有事你會很寂寞 你獨個行樂怎可快樂
你沒我的運氣能先走 畢竟能早登天國
但我若有事你要孤獨做人就重頭再學
學習到天邊海角 一人拼搏 你這主角 沒有配角

如我若有事你會很寂寞 你獨個行樂怎可快樂
你沒我的運氣能先走 畢竟能早登天國
就算是有事你也可讓別人再做你主角
但是你怎希罕那 一埸寄托 是我多口 令你發惡

Dear God...

Dear God.. why do I feel so strange for the past few days? Is there something that you want to tell me? Why do I feel like my time is up? Is it time to go home? I wish you can tell me.. if I really have to go.. can I go after Martha look for me? Please... can I? I know we all have to leave this world one day.. if really it's time for me to go.. can you let me meet Martha for one last time before you take me home? Please... I know she will miss me so much if I leave without seeing her.. because I will miss her so much too... if really anything happen to me.. God.. please promise me.. help me to take good care of Martha.. give her good health and happiness for the rest of her life.. There are so many questions in my heart now oh God... I want to know the answers so badly.. but I don't know where can I find the answers.. will Martha be alright when I'm no longer here in this world? Will Martha miss me everyday? Will Martha keep all her promises she made to me and my family? Will Martha really love me alone for the rest of her life? God.. so many so many questions in my heart... whatever it is.. God.. please be with Martha always.. and please take good care of Martha for me.. thank you Father in heaven.. thank you so much... bless Martha oh God... let her know that I always love her and she's my one and only one.. forever and ever.. 

Thursday, December 11, 2014

Day 23

Date: 11 December 2014

傻豬老婆。。你今日點啊?有無好番好多啦?呢度今日落左成日大雨。。呢幾日都會係咁。。唔知點解最近既心情好似怪怪地。。好似會有d事發生咁。。唔知點講。。總之好怪。。你啊。。要快d好番啊。。如果我真係有d咩事既話。。你要再次叫醒我架。。其他人講d野我唔聽架。。知唔知啊?你之前應承過我,我好番之後。。你唔會再離開我架。。仲話如果我一求婚。。你就嫁架啦。。你唔好呃我。。仲記唔記得我地魔鬼與天使混合既小輝輝啊?你要記住你應承過我好多野架。。所以你要繼續比心機。。加油。。快d好番啊。。

今日睇新聞。。金鐘開始清場啦。。睇到呢個video。。好正。。


聽日12pm-3pm 公司有annual lunch,食完唔知係咪走得呢。。要等大老細決定。。收工之後會返芙蓉。。留係kl都無野做。。悶到死。。返屋企有自己間房。。可以舒舒服服幫老婆祈禱。。我今朝返工同lunch time都有幫老婆祈禱啊。。老婆啊。。我真係好愛好愛你。。好掛住你。。唔可以無左你。。你對我好重要。。我知你都一樣。。我好耐無聽到你同我講你好愛我,好掛住我啦。。你快d同我講啦。。好嗎?頭先睇番fb d野。。有個post你留言話。。"你是我的"。。你再同我講啦。。好嗎?錫晒你。。muah!老公等緊你。。

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

突然好想你





最怕空氣突然安靜 最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶 突然翻滾絞痛著不平息 最怕突然 聽到你的消息
想念如果會有聲音 不願那是悲傷的哭泣
事到如今 終於讓自己屬於我自己 只剩眼淚 還騙不過自己

突然好想你 你會在哪裡 過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你 突然鋒利的回憶 突然模糊的眼睛

我們像一首最美麗的歌曲 變成兩部悲傷的電影
為什麼你 帶我走過最難忘的旅行 然後留下 最痛的紀念品

我們 那麼甜那麼美那麼相信 那麼瘋那麼熱烈的曾經
為何我們還是要奔向各自的幸福和遺憾中老去

突然好想你 你會在哪裡 過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你 突然鋒利的回憶 突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空氣突然安靜 最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶 突然翻滾絞痛著不平息 最怕突然 聽到你的消息

最怕此生 已經決心自己過沒有你 卻又突然 聽到你的消息

Day 22

Date: 10 December 2014

傻豬老婆。。i miss u so much... i know u miss me so much too.. like crazy.. 比心機,加油啊。。老公今日好累啊。。尋晚開OT開到成3點幾先收得工。。4點幾先訓,訓無4個鍾又要起身返工啦。。今朝返工同lunch time既時候都有幫老婆祈禱。。無論幾累幾無精神我都唔會偷懶,會一直幫你祈禱直到你好番晒為止。。

尋晚OT,loading緊既時候。。我繼續寫我應承左老婆會寫比我地一齊合唱既個首歌。。都7788架啦。。仲爭個曲同睇下需唔需要執過d歌詞黎順番隻曲。。希望靈感快d到。。快d完成首歌。。計計下呢首已經係我寫比老婆既第8首歌啦。。再多幾首可以出碟啦,呵呵… 雖然我寫歌唔係好叻,但係我寫比你既每一首歌,背後都有佢既故事。。呢d歌永遠都只屬於你同我。。我從來無寫過咁多首歌,係我記憶中最多兩,三首,所以老婆你係每一首歌既靈魂。。

我今日lunch time幫老婆祈禱完之後返office,開左蘋果日報個網黎睇下關於"佔中"d新聞。。睇下睇下搵到呢篇野。。覺得好有意思。。


仲記得2個幾月前我去香港既第三日,佔中行動開始左,係旺角見到既一切,個種堅持同精神,令我感動,敬佩。。雖然我唔係香港人,不過呢度我地都有為民主,為自由示威,抗議過無數次。。我都有拎條黃絲帶為你地打氣,仲同老婆講,你唔係香港,知道你好想為佢地打氣,就由我黎代替你。。 我會將條黃絲帶送比老婆。。呵呵… 老婆個陣仲好擔心我,一直提我,細佬同表妹唔好去人多既地方。。但係我真係忍唔住要去。。因為我親眼見到既一切,真係好靚。。呢個咁有歷史性既一刻,我一定要見證下。。

睇完佔中既野,見到有段令人嘔心既新聞。。有一個15歲既女仔比人呃左返屋企影相,跟住先姦後殺,條屍仲比兇手裝入紅白藍尼龍袋掉入垃圾房。。個女仔既男朋友仲上fb搵佢,以為個女朋友同緊佢玩,點知原來出左事。。真係陰公。。只得15歲。。單新聞而家係香港應該好轟動。。睇完單新聞心都酸埋。。呢個世界已經變得越黎越恐怖。。無言。。唉…

我做埋多少野就收工啦。。今日真係好累。。老婆要繼續比心機加油啊。。老公晏d返到屋企繼續幫你祈禱。。老婆好快就會好番。。我好掛住你。。好愛好愛你。。錫晒你。。muah!老公等緊你。。

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Why God? Why?

Oh God... why? Why Lord? Is what I found out few days ago the truth? Is it what I'm thinking? Or there are other reasons behind it? Why do I have to go through this over and over again? I just want to be with the person I love for the rest of my life.. why is it so hard? Why? I just want to be with Martha for the rest of my life..